Can't make the decision

It's been a long time. I kinda forget how it feels to be happy already. Kinda getting used to this feeling now, cause chances are I won't be able to be happy for at least some years. Things get hard and complicated.

My partner can't make up her mind what to do and what she wants. This leaves everyone hanging around, waiting for her to make up her mind, waiting for her to do the right thing. Meanwhile, I'll be like who I am now, hanging around. Can't fall down, and can go up. Waiting for the decision to what's gonna happen next.

She can't accept the fact that someone will get hurt, she try so hard to make everyone happy but only to fail miserably. To her, making everyone happy is the most important, at least she think everyone was happy. Trying not to be too straight forward so that everyone is happy. In the end, only to hurt everyone around her. By trying not to hurt people, she wasted every one's time and told a lot of lies which causes more problems. She didn't realise that doing it straight forward is the best solution, but she is stubborn to listen to others.

How do you face your problem ? You have someone who you love, but she can't do the right thing. Can't be together with you nicely. She loves you. But has so many problems that she can't fix. You wanted to help, but she is stubborn to let you help. She may make things worst and you can't do anything. And she's not telling you what's going on. But she loves you. It makes you to go crazy thinking and worrying. And she won't understand what to do. Wanted to make people feel better but doing the exact opposite.

In the end, I realise I shouldn't try to help her or stop her. I have to accept this now and be strong to do my own things. It's gonna be very diffucult as a big part of my mind is always thinking of her., and she can't ease my mind. It's her growing up process, although it's unusual for her to be like this at her age. I wished that she can grow up as my partner all the time, but she just can't do it. I'll need to be strong to go through this for some years, hopefully she gets matue sooner and I won't have so much worry anymore.

Good luck to her , good luck to myself.