Getting back on feet

Eveyone was once a young child. Running around, playing around the house. Chasing around with kids , bully or get bullied by others... I remember phrases i heard that time when i was young :

" When you fall down , get back up on ur feet "
" Never give up "
" Keep it up and one day u'll be great "

Phrases that lie burried in me.

So, everytime i fall down and injured while i was running, playing or something else, i try to stand back on my feet fast. I never give up on anything and i always believe one day i'll be able to do great things.

We face challenges in life, study become more important. I wanted to get myself good at study , i tried to work hard during highschool but was never really good. But one thing for sure, deep inside me, i just knew i'm good at it. I may be lazy that time, but inside my heart, i always know that one day, i will be great with my ideas flying around all the time. Its a little weird, seems that i just know it.

Maybe cause the way i think, things i wanted to achieve, basically through my whole life, I'm always fighting for something. For improvements in life, never give up on anything that i wanted to achieve.

I used to be a very fat young boy, I was 200 pounds !!!!! I always wanted to loose fats to look better cause i feel very bad about being fat, how i look and what others think of me. Its been a battle between me and my fats for 6 years. I never really work hard for it at first, i always give up after trying for few days. My parents feed me very well, i have no chance at all. Untill one day, i got a chance. I was in love with a girl , i blame at myself i wont be able to be with her cause i'm fat. Happens that time my family was away from me due to work in KL and i was all alone in my house with my uncle. It was perfect timing, I feed myself and i was determined to exercise to loose fats. Running and climbing stairs was my way to do it. The abbs machine i bought later on helped me alot as well.

I have to say, determination is a scary thing. When i was out of breath, so tired of running. Lactic acid filled my legs, i was sweating like bathing, i was wiped out by exhaution at the jogging track. I slowed down, gasped for air, and i start thinking.... How can i be tired so fast ? I'll never change if i'm tired already. Immediately after i that, some how, i started running again. still gasping for air. My heart was sad, I was crying from the inside, and so determined to change once and for all. A rush of adrenaline keeps me moving. I always run untill my limit.

In 2 months, my body got transformed. However, I didnt celebrate or feel happy at all. My heart cried everytime i go running. No one knows bout it , feel so lonely. I was all alone that time. I was so sad in that 2 months, practically given up on things, and lived a lonely life.

I learned something very precious which few people did.
" If i give everything i got, never give up, I'll ALWAYS be successful no matter what it is. "

However, after all those hard work and sadness inside my heart, i realised the most precious thing is i know i can achieve anything i want. As long as i have the heart, determination and never give up, i will make it.

I challenged myself to climb Mount Kinabalu after all the hardship, I was one of the fastest climber. Thats good enough evidence for me i've improved. I didnt feel happy at all. My heart was in the fighting mode, not able to enjoy anything that time. Maybe this is me, I'll improve when i'm feeling sad and lonely.

This was the first thing i achieved in my life. It gives me confidence and patience in doing anything. I went on to improve my study. I was shy at talking and social. I i worked hard to be instructor, so i would communicate with other people and hence better at communicating with other people.

Untill today, I often find myself fighting for something. And i realised there's something, no matter how hard i work for it, even if i dont give up, even if i put all my heart in it, I may not achieve it ..... Things just get harder .... And I'm getting little tired of all these struggling for improvements.

I hope everyone would believe and work hard for what we all wish. Everything is possible, some people may say things like : " Ur not meant to be like that " or " Just be urself ".
I learned to loose fat, study and social. I changed myself. Well, I'm still myself actually, and I like to work hard for the better , never give up. I still have things left i need to do it. One day, I'll put a rest for myself , I hope that day come soon. I hope i live a happy and relaxing life.